wow really

I still cant believe the school that I thought was perfect because I thought it was fair turns out lying to me since the beginning. Like really don't tell me lies, just tell me the truth that students don't matter when it comes to teachers or staff problems because I swear if I am told once more that it is a fair community and that I am respected as an individual and that I matter, then I am going to spit at what they say because I have been proven not once but twice that none of the bullshit they are trying to shove down my throat is true.

the fear of getting hurt,

stays in my heart,

and repeats its self ,

over and over,

even though many try to make me ,

think its wrong,

but would they think the same,

if it where them every time,

if they played with their hearts,

if they embarrassed them,

if they personally made them hurt on purpose,

but yet i try,

seems i like to get hurt,

everyday of every moment,

because it seems that i follow the hurt,

seems I'm meant to cry on a daily basis,

till theres' no more tears,

and my eyes become the Sahara dessert,

seems my heart is meant to freeze ,

to the point that there's no tuning back ,

no happiness,

no smiles,

not even fake ones,

but i guess that's how it is, no?