I'm sorry

I’m sorry I fucked everything up

I’m sorry I turned everything bad

I’m sorry I’m not like everyone else

I’m sorry I’m complicated

I’m sorry I can’t speak up

I’m sorry my reality got to you

I’m sorry I underestimated myself

I’m sorry I can’t let it go

I’m sorry things ended up the way they did

I’m sorry if I hurt you

I’m sorry if I bothered you

I’m sorry if I couldn’t handle things

I’m sorry I’m crazy

I’m sorry I couldn’t understand

All you were looking for was friendship and nothing else

I’m sorry I fucked everything up.

I'm at a lose of words. people now a days don't seem to understand how to communicate in words rather then screaming or arguing or even at times using physical contact . Every time I look around me people cant handle it and I have somehow become somewhat accustom to it when I shouldn't have to . Every day I walk through my hallways and I see how we have become and it deeply saddens me. We say we are better then animals but it seems that we are becoming worse then them in controlling our selves. I have to admit I have become a victim to this norm and I have come to realize that its not even worth it anymore because all it causes is harm to me and the people that surround me. If you agree please tell me what changed your life around.



My story: I got involved in a situation in where I thought there was no way out but to fight . It was so stupid now that I look at it . It was over marking my friend absent and I didn't want the teacher to mark her absent so I stood up for her but in the process started a major conflict between a student and myself .Which led to problems the whole day , we would give each other dirty looks and would argue non-stop. It got so out of hand that even friends were getting involved, and we actually started fighting in front of of other students. Now that I see how it affected us in the long run like getting suspended to almost kicked out of school and having problems between us and our friends for a long time almost a whole year of pure nonsense . But I faced the facts and now we can understand each other a little and the problems since then have subsided and I hope things will stay that way from now on.

If only he knew I had a crush on him a long time ago , what would he do, what whould he say, what whould he think.ever since he told me he likes me I cant stop wondering what made him suddenly notice me , could it be the picture on my profile,could it be hes just looking for fun, or that he knows I'm still inexperience . I don't know maybe I'm putting to much thought into it. :/ I wish I knew how to deal with this. could it really be that i can be this confused.

those moments when you have to do a reality check due to the fact that you find something out unexpectedly, yes those moments suck but the thing is it's better to know things then to be blinded by a lie.

5 moods a drunk takes in order
1.person becomes mellow
2.person becomes happy
3. person starts to think they are the shit
4.person becomes emotional
5.person becomes aggressive

yet the people that drink seem to think they are one of a kind , when the steps are pretty much in order always.

Yet I still believe in love when nothing seems to ever go right for me . I mean is it really hard to admit what I really feel or believe?

wow really

I still cant believe the school that I thought was perfect because I thought it was fair turns out lying to me since the beginning. Like really don't tell me lies, just tell me the truth that students don't matter when it comes to teachers or staff problems because I swear if I am told once more that it is a fair community and that I am respected as an individual and that I matter, then I am going to spit at what they say because I have been proven not once but twice that none of the bullshit they are trying to shove down my throat is true.